I wish I knew.

I wish I knew.
I wish I knew who you were. 
I wish I knew when you would come, when we find each other.
Will we meet in a coffee shop, where we bond over the simplicity of black coffee?
Will you sit next to me one day at the dog beach and strike up a conversation?
Will I accidentally run into you on the street and be mesmerized by your baby blue eyes?
Will I meet you at a friend’s wedding, where you rescue me from dancing with her grandpa for the hundredth time?
Will I notice you and more importantly, will you notice me?
I wish I knew.








I love you to them moon and the stars and back!!! ❤

Thanks for being my big, sister and best friend. You keep me sane and always make me see the humor in life!

Xx Forever and Always,

The journey of an “anti-truster”

Whilst sitting on the floor drinking my pumkpin spice herbal tea, i am contemplating the journey of my life.

For me, it often seems that life never gives me a break.

It seems as though the Universe throws me one challenge after another.

How can I “trust” in the Universe’s plan, when it seems that I am unable to handle all that it is sending my way?

However, I realize that these moments- when things so overwhelming and utterly impossible- are the ones in which my soul grows.

Now let me be honest, the growth I’m experiencing sucks- it’s often painful and uncomfortable and just plain sad.

Yet, I know that these challenges and difficulties are a part of my journey and all I have to do- all I can do is trust.

I think that’s ultimately all we can do in this life- we ultimately can’t control, we can’t change or fix. All we can do is trust the Universe or our Higher Power to send us what we need.

So tonight, I leave you with that bit of wisdom as I “keep calm and drink my tea.” 😊🙏



The bad day blues

So it’s only 8:30am and my day is already off to a rather bad start.

I woke up with my face swollen and red! My nose is about the size of a small tennis ball.

In addition, I woke up with a TON of anxiety about my day.

But in spite of this, I decided to wake up and get dressed and go treat myself to a nice breakfast.

Determined to place myself into a more positive mood I walked over to my favorite cafe. I ordered and decided to find a table to sit down.

I spotted a small table by the window and began to walk over to it. At the same time, a man entered the cafe. I smiled at him and continued to make my way over.

Instead of smiling back, he sped up and stole my table! I couldn’t believe it!

I stood there for a minute in shock! I’m not proud to say this, but instead of standing up for myself, I sulkily waited for another table.

When I finally sat down and ate my breakfast, I was able to challenge my bad mood.

I was feeling bad or shameful- like these things were a reflection of me. But instead of getting stuck in such thoughts, I reminded myself that I am simply human! Things are not perfect-I can get sick and people can be mean, however this is not necessarily a reflection of me.

So if you are having a bad day remind yourself that it’s not about you! You are still wonderful and beautiful and love able. But we are all also human.




I’ve thought quite a bit about this quote over the past two years.

I believe it. From my experience, my thoughts have shaped my reality.

Our thoughts are powerful, often much more powerful than we give them credit for. This truth is both powerful and frightening.

Imagine if we embraced the inner power of our thoughts- I truly believe that our dreams and goals would be nothing but possible.

I hope you can find little ways to embrace the power of your thoughts.

This is my resolution for this year. To realize and utilize the power of my mind.


Letting Go

Letting Go

Today I woke up thinking about my future. Lately, I’ve been forced to take a hard look at my life- to revaluate the my priorities and the way I am choosing to treat myself.

After some difficult reflection, I had to be honest with myself- I was not treating myself the way that I should.

My inner critic was louder than ever and my health was suffering.

Thus, this past week I’ve chosen to make many difficult, but necessary changes.

My plan is not to resist the changes that are happening, but instead to embrace them. To flow with them.

Resisting these changes that I have needed to make has only caused me suffering and distress.

Instead, I think that often it’s better to trust the Universe and embrace the path it is trying to take us on.

Love and light and HAPPY FRIDAY 😉


Is loving really worth it?


Lately, I’ve been questioning the importance of love.

Is it really worth opening up my heart when it only seems to result in hurt and doubt?

Yes, the butterflies, the laughs, the memories and adventures are wonderful- but afterwards all I feel, all I can connect with, is sadness and hurt.

It hasn’t been many days since my most recent heartbreak, which led me to the very question, “is love worth it?”

Despite all of my hurt and pain, I quite quickly found the answer to be yes.

I realized that for me, loving isn’t about the end result- it isn’t necessarily about finding my Prince Charming.

Loving and putting my heart out there is about living- it’s about my soul growing, experiencing and learning.

Thus, I have to come to the conclusion that although perhaps I need a hiatus from the dating world for a period of time, loving is worth it.

I know my future holds many more opportunities for love, and regardless of the pain and heartbreak I’ve experienced, I plan on being open to it when it drops on by.